With so many changes (many not in a good way) happening both in the UK and around the world my mind has started to think about the future and the kind of world we are bringing our children into. A couple of years ago my father passed away, I won't go into details but it was sudden and unexpected and could of been prevented, he was in the wrong place at the wrong time and every now and then my mother and I reflect on what happened in the years before and after, if we had changed anything and maybe because I am somewhat a realist I try not to dwell on the past, I do like to remember him but I don't think it's good to go over and over things you simply cannot change.
After he passed many things changed in the way I feel about life and I choose to see it as the glass half full. In a crazy way for me so much good came in the years after my father not passed and if that event in my life hadn't happened then I wouldn't of met my partner John or finished my degree when I did or have my two beautiful children, thats the strange thing about life is that absolutely horrible things can happen but then they thrust you don't a road you were not planning on and often that can lead to great things.
With everything that is happening with the world today I keep wondering if we knew the future would we actually do anything to change it and would that make any real impact? I know things are not great at the moment in terms of world economics and politics but we didn't just wake up one day and it had all gone south - no it's gone this way over time, over a fairly longtime when we all could of make choices to work hard to ensure a better future.
I am pretty philosophical when it comes to life and think I am very grounded, I don't dismiss anything and try to keep and open mind to the possibility of many things and respect other peoples beliefs, it's our differences that make the world and interesting place. I do think we play a role in our own future and what we are capable of as a species is limitless and the power of the mind is something you shouldn't underestimate. I recently watched The Arrival - if you have not seen it you really should and the fact she knew her future and despite it holding a great loss she made the choice to not change it but rather savour the times she had with the people she loved than never have them at all.
It made me wonder if you knew your future would you change anything? I am sure if I was asked this before my father died I of course would of taken the steps to change what happened but in reflection to that now, my life is filled with two amazing boys who I will forever be grateful for and I know the events that happened led me here I am not sure if I would change a thing at all.
In a way many of us are superstitious even if we don't think we are, I find myself not walking under ladders and not opening an umbrella inside or a slight panic when a mirror is broken, because you never really know. Others read the daily horoscopes and we as a family enjoy fortune cookies after our weekly oriental stir-fry night while others may have one to one astrology readings. Of course nothing can tell us for sure what the future holds, no one really knows that and thats what makes life exciting and I really kind of like it that way, even if the next four years doesn't feel that positive I'm sure there will be some good things to come out of it all.